The only difference between friends and lovers is about four minutes.

MrN pushed me in ways that were new and exciting, and we had some fun times. From sharing videos and fantasies, to stretching myself to be able to take a patent leather heel, I was exposed to some different kinks and perhaps he was too. Before I met him I had been confused by the … Continue reading The only difference between friends and lovers is about four minutes.

Be brave. Take risks. Nothing can substitute experience.

I wonder how many submissives have been tasked by their dominant with anal stretching? Both of mine required this of me during my time with them. It was a task that I relished because anal play is a particular weakness for me.... It was my first step outside of "normal" sex at the tender age … Continue reading Be brave. Take risks. Nothing can substitute experience.

If it scares you it might be a good idea to try.

The saying "Be careful what you wish for" comes to mind as I continue on with my memories. Actually the exact phrase that comes to mind is Be careful what videos you save to an xHamster account that you share with your Dominant, but it doesn't have quite the same ring to it. I have mentioned before that … Continue reading If it scares you it might be a good idea to try.

If the plan doesn’t work change the plan, but never the goal.

MrN and I had an evening scheduled in for conversation and a short scene. As usual it had been planned the week before, he was working late and my boys were with their dad. We had tried it when they were home, but their bedtime pushed back our time for talk so everything became rushed … Continue reading If the plan doesn’t work change the plan, but never the goal.

Tigers die and leave their skin; people die and leave their names.

I have always been keen to push past my soft limits in safe environments. I will also happily test out my hard limits privately, if I feel it would be a benefit to me and my journey. What I won't tolerate is having my hard limits crossed by those I have a play relationship with. … Continue reading Tigers die and leave their skin; people die and leave their names.

The Mystery Blogger Award

Thank you to Curious Clitty and Lady Clio for nominating me for the Mystery Blogger Award, created by Okoto Enigma to highlight amazing blogs which have yet to be discovered.  Here are the rules! • Put the award logo/image on your blog. • List the rules. • Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog. • Mention … Continue reading The Mystery Blogger Award

Do not be too timid and squeamish about your actions. All life is an experiment.

My journey with MrN was underway and I was giving over a little of myself to him. It was a peculiar sensation because I had given myself to Sir so completely and I hadn't had the chance to take that back. MrN was the first person who had a hint of what I needed and … Continue reading Do not be too timid and squeamish about your actions. All life is an experiment.

And suddenly you just know it is time to start something new and trust the magic of new beginnings

Life seemed to be going quite well. The sale of my marital home was nearing completion and I had a new flat to move into with my boys. They were settling into a new life with two homes. I had been promoted at work, had an increased case-load and became responsible for training new staff. … Continue reading And suddenly you just know it is time to start something new and trust the magic of new beginnings

To be outstanding- get comfortable with being uncomfortable

    Two of the strangest things happened at my next meeting with H. He had arranged for us to visit The Annexe a holiday let attached to the home of a pair of veterans in the community. It was a place that I had discovered when Sir had tasked me with finding alternatives to hotels, and … Continue reading To be outstanding- get comfortable with being uncomfortable